I believe.

Change: Let it take you where it may

Change is among us at every passing moment. The earth moves, the wind blows, life speeds along. Most often these changes go unnoticed as we move forward but at a moments notice big things can change to. Where we are, who we choose and what we want. The hardest thing I have had to come to terms with lately is the change of different relationships. Don't get me wrong sometimes the metamorphosis is incredible and actually life changing in the most positive way. But unfortunately it can go the other way. I am all heart and the loss of something has always and will always make me sad. There is no one or no thing to blame fully and sometimes there is no rhyme or reason. This is a part of life. My mom always reminds me that life is not easy or always fun its the choices we make that make it the way we want. The people we choose to surround ourselves with, the places we choose to put ourselves in and the things we spend our time doing. And sometimes our choices are different then someone elses choices. Hell I am glad they are because if not, this world would be one boring ass place.
Over the last 2 years I have recognized and lived through much change but as of late my heart feels the change in the relationships within my life. Perhaps I put my heart on hiatus for awhile due to its fragility but shes back and shes feeling it, alright. I will admit with no embarrassments, the change in said relationships has actually brought me to tears and left me quite sad and a little broken. I miss these peeps...I miss what was and what could be. I miss laughing about nothing and talking for hours. I miss sharing and I miss caring. No one and nothing is to blame but life itself. We all move in different paths and need to be in different places, at different times. Dr Seuss once said, Don't cry because its over, Smile because it happened.
I am confident that whatever happens I will love said individuals forever more and I will always smile when recounting our adventures together. but every once in awhile after smiling because it happened, a tear may slide down my cheek and my heart might pang for on simple instance for what was. As we are most certainly reminded quite often, change in inevitable and rather then holding it back we must swim with its current and take from it what we can. moving with grace and a full heart no matter what the moment or situation. Living and loving with all that we can muster. Everything happens for a reason, the wind of change will take us where it may so don't fight it, let it take you where it may.

Me. Right. Now

yep. you gots it. I have a terrible case of writers block. All I want to do is share my Boston Marathon experience. BUT everytime I try the words just don't come out right. I felt the weekend with every emotion and loved every single second but my words are not coming out on the page in the way I would like. It is irritating and frustrating. But only time will allow. Therefore I step away and...wait. knowing with every ounce that they will come, in time.
V.

dreams can come true

10 days ago a dream came true. yep thats right I finished the superbowl of running: THE boston marathon. It was a weekend I will never forget and an experience of a lifetime. I solo missioned about, met some incredible people and proved to myself if you work hard, believe in something enough it can be yours. I want to share with you every ounce of the weekend but I need time. I need space to swallow it all in. I am now a Boston marathoner. Something I will hold deep in the depths of my being forever. I want to share it all, take you along for the ride of the 26 miles through the rolling hills into Boston and all the moments before and after... but I am not ready. I need time to gather my emotions, my ideas and my thoughts about it all. Thank you for your patience and for staying tuned. I promise there will be thousands of words to come.
V. xo

CITGO I heart you

This logo will be etched in my minds eye forever more. It was a sign that I was almost there...that the FINISH Line of the Boston marathon was so close I could almost taste it. It made me dig deep and run it in like I stole something...
This ridiculous logo will remind me always that it is mind over matter, my friends.
More about my Boston marathoning experience to come...pinky.

V.

Beantown here I come...

well here I sit a bit emotional but lets be honest when am I not a bit emotional? ha. The Boston marathon is a mere days away. It is scary, exciting, invigorating all rolled up into one. Can you believe I, yep me, will be running the oldest marathon in North America? This mara is considered the superbowl for runners and I get to partake. I get to own it, live it and love it! And at the end of the day I really cannot wait. The butterflies are creeping into my gut and fluttering about this way and that but they are the best because if I were not a little bit anxious then I my friends would not be human. The next few days I will most likely be a ball of nerves and excitement. Tmo I will board a flight to Boston and begin the weekend where one of my dreams comes true. One of my aspirations becomes reality and if thats not cool well I don't know what is.

no rhyme or reason...

I loves. not sure why. I just do...


V. xo

Inline

WOW sometimes it is freaky how inline I am with the stars. Boston is a mere 6 sleeps away....and here is what the universe is saying:
Leo- Tuesday, April 13, 2010
To win the lottery, you need a lot of luck. But to succeed with a certain plan you have put so much work into, you don’t need an awful lot. Things are already heading in the right direction. Your efforts will soon all prove worthwhile as long as you maintain your current level of determination. Do not waiver from your sense of purpose. The time is now right to reach your destination.

If that doesn't put a skip in my step I am not sure what would!

Sunshine and lollies to you all!

V. xo

Born ready.

Am I nervous? A little. Am I excited? Hells ya! Am I ready? I was born ready. Bring it Boston!
V.