Monday, January 17, 2011

Brene Brown: The power of vulnerability

This brought tears to my eyes.  Beautiful talk on the power of vulnerability.  Friends, to be loved we must believe we are worthy of love.
Hope you enjoy it as much as I did.

V. xo

Wednesday, January 5, 2011

Tuesday, January 4, 2011

Friday, December 24, 2010

Twas christmas eve...already?

Well well well here we are again at the holly season.  It is Christmas eve and I am at the rents already starting to relax away from the city's hustle and bustle.  my pressies are wrapped, tied and bowed--although they look as though they were wrapped by a 5 year old...they ARE wrapped.  Tacky not lovely was the vings theme of the day.  I whistled and dance partied while I worked and somewhere at some moment I got excited about this here season.  It has been awhile since I was genuinely excited for Christmas.  Somewhere along the years it lost its spark for me.  I always try and pin point the exact reason but there is unfortunately a handful but this year they are not getting me down.  They range from Santa to loss to earth shattering pain.  Somehow this year I have bottled them up in a mason jar and put them to the side.  They are there, I can feel them, but the joy and love in my heart are winning.  Perhaps this year is one in a million or perhaps this season will be one I embrace forevermore, either way I am going to embrace and go with it and enjoy every itty bitty second.
Merry Christmas, My friends!  Go!  Now!  Eat, drink, Be merry and Be thankful.
Muah!
V. xo

Thursday, December 9, 2010

My heart is heavy.

Today is just another day for you but not for me.  It is a day, years ago I lost someone I loved and still do love very much.  I miss him and think of him often.  Would I change one moment we shared back then?  Never.  We loved, we laughed, we cried, we shared.  He shall live on deep within the bowels of my heart and remain one breath away until that day we meet again.  As he sits up there looking down upon me with that mischievous smile of his, I look right back and give him a wink and thank my lucky stars for the time we had and the moments we shared.  
Friends, we cannot rewrite the past and only have the future but I will always and forever remember him and the impact he had on my life. Take a moment today and be thankful for everyone in your life.  Tell these peeps how you feel and what they mean to you...you just never know.  Life is just so damn precious and too damn short.  My heart is heavy but for the best possible reason, to love someone so much, is so damn incredible. He is always with me. Forevermore.
V. xo

Friday, November 12, 2010

Truth.

For a long time it seemed to me that life was about to begin - real life. But there was always some obstacle in the way, something to be gotten through first, some unfinished business, time still to be served, a debt to be paid. At last it dawned on me that these obstacles were my life. This perspective has helped to see there is no way to happiness. happiness is the way. So treasure every moment you have and remember that time waits for no one. Happiness is a journey, not a destination. ~ Souza

Dear Best Friend,

My besties make my world the best place to be.  I am telling you.  I have so much love and heart for my gals.  Thanks for holding my hand through the dark and having my back.  Thanks for reminding me I am human and for taking great care of my heart and soothing my soul.  Man, the vings is one lucky girl.

V. xo

Tuesday, November 2, 2010

Autumn Valentine

V. xo

Tis November...well hello there.

And here we are...Tis November.  With fall almost fallen and winter in the wings... and I thought the summer came and went with fierceness!?  wow.
September slowed somewhat after days of summer revelry and fun but October felt, well, fast and hard.
With October came winds of change for all of those around me, billowing with bitter sweetness and at times some heartbreak hotel.  But alas change AWAYS brings fresh and new beginnings--all in time, my friends.
You cannot see the rainbows without any rains.
I have been twisting and turning, living and laughing each day and can feel the ole body preparing for hibernation.  The sweaters have been dawned and the running tights worn.  Leaving work at 6 or later, no longer in full bright of day, now in twilight on the verge of darkness.  I can smell the seed of winter, putting down its roots and waiting patiently in the wings.  it is only a matter of time.
October brought much needed and anticipated family time which ushered more appreciation and love for what I was born into and lucky enough to just have.  moments at the frac together, living and laughing life away on lobs.  gorgeous moments that I will remember and shall remain in my heart forever.  It allowed for many great times with glorious friends, some killer runs that believe it or not I will cherish in the dark, snowy days of winter.  This month with failure came knowledge and with success came defeat.  Funny how that can happen.  In an instant, October had me pushing personal boundaries I did not even know I had to domineer in a professional and intimate fashion.
Am I excited for all to come?  Of course.  It is the vings after all.  Am I am dreading winter?  perhaps a tad.  I pinky, I heart summer days more then the rest.  but hey, there is ALWAYS fun to be, lessons to be had and new moments to be cherished.  As always, I say bring it on.  The best is only yet to come.
V. xo

Saturday, October 23, 2010

If I ever feel better...

Last night I went to see Phoenix, a band I truly adore.  Their lyrics speak to me and their music moves me.  I am not sure why as sometimes the words don't even make sense but alas such is life.  Not everything always has to make sense.  They opened with Lizstomania and I felt as though I might cry.  Their music represents so much for me...where I was when I first heard them is so far from where I am.  Their songs have got me through some tough days, some tough runs but they also remind me of so much joy and even silly fun.  Funny how that happens isn't.  
Their song "If I ever feel better" (lyrics below) speaks to me.  alas I share.  Maybe they speak to you too and bring you somewhere you never thought you could go or could have been.  Either way...Take a read and see.  


They say an end can be a start
Feels like I've been buried yet I'm still alive
It's like a bad day that never ends
I feel the chaos around me
A thing I don't try to deny
I'd better learn to accept that
There are things in my life that I can't control

They say love ain't nothing but a sore
I don't even know what love is
Too many tears have had to fall
Don't you know I'm so tired of it all
I have known terror dizzy spells
Finding out the secrets words won't tell
Whatever it is it can't be named
There's a part of my world that' s fading away

You know I don't want to be clever
To be brilliant or superior
True like ice, true like fire
Now I know that a breeze can blow me away
Now I know there's much more dignity
In defeat than in the brightest victory
I'm losing my balance on the tight rope
Tell me please, tell me please, tell me please...

If I ever feel better
Remind me to spend some good time with you
You can give me your number
When it's all over I'll let you know

Hang on to the good days
I can lean on my friends
They help me going through hard times
But I'm feeding the enemy
I'm in league with the foe
Blame me for what's happening
I can't try, I can't try, I can't try...

No one knows the hard times I went through
If happiness came I miss the call
The stormy days ain't over
I've tried and lost know I think that I pay the cost
Now I've watched all my castles fall
They were made of dust, after all
Someday all this mess will make me laugh
I can't ewait, I can't wait, I can't wait...

If I ever feel better
Remind me to spend some good time with you
You can give me your number
When it's all over I'll let you know
If I ever feel better
Remind me to spend some good time with you
You can give me your number
When it's all over I'll let you know

It's like somebody took my place
I ain't even playing my own game
The rules have changed well I didn't know
There are things in my life I can't control
I feel the chaos around me
A thing I don't try to deny
I'd better learn to accept that
There's a part of my life that will go away

Dark is the night, cold is the ground
In the circular solitude of my heart
As one who strives a hill to climb
I am sure I'll come through I don't know how
They say an end can be a start
Feels like I've been buried yet I'm still alive

I'm losing my balance on the tight rope
Tell me please, tell me please, tell me please...

If I ever feel better
Remind me to spend some good time with you
You can give me your number
When it's all over I'll let you know

If I ever feel better
Remind me to spend some good time with you
You can give me your number
When it's all over I'll let you know

If I ever feel better
Remind me to spend some good time with you
You can give me your number
When it's all over I'll let you know 


V. xo