Sunday, May 30, 2010

Saturday, May 15, 2010

Change: Let it take you where it may

Change is among us at every passing moment. The earth moves, the wind blows, life speeds along. Most often these changes go unnoticed as we move forward but at a moments notice big things can change to. Where we are, who we choose and what we want. The hardest thing I have had to come to terms with lately is the change of different relationships. Don't get me wrong sometimes the metamorphosis is incredible and actually life changing in the most positive way. But unfortunately it can go the other way. I am all heart and the loss of something has always and will always make me sad. There is no one or no thing to blame fully and sometimes there is no rhyme or reason. This is a part of life. My mom always reminds me that life is not easy or always fun its the choices we make that make it the way we want. The people we choose to surround ourselves with, the places we choose to put ourselves in and the things we spend our time doing. And sometimes our choices are different then someone elses choices. Hell I am glad they are because if not, this world would be one boring ass place.
Over the last 2 years I have recognized and lived through much change but as of late my heart feels the change in the relationships within my life. Perhaps I put my heart on hiatus for awhile due to its fragility but shes back and shes feeling it, alright. I will admit with no embarrassments, the change in said relationships has actually brought me to tears and left me quite sad and a little broken. I miss these peeps...I miss what was and what could be. I miss laughing about nothing and talking for hours. I miss sharing and I miss caring. No one and nothing is to blame but life itself. We all move in different paths and need to be in different places, at different times. Dr Seuss once said, Don't cry because its over, Smile because it happened.
I am confident that whatever happens I will love said individuals forever more and I will always smile when recounting our adventures together. but every once in awhile after smiling because it happened, a tear may slide down my cheek and my heart might pang for on simple instance for what was. As we are most certainly reminded quite often, change in inevitable and rather then holding it back we must swim with its current and take from it what we can. moving with grace and a full heart no matter what the moment or situation. Living and loving with all that we can muster. Everything happens for a reason, the wind of change will take us where it may so don't fight it, let it take you where it may.

Thursday, May 6, 2010

Me. Right. Now

yep. you gots it. I have a terrible case of writers block. All I want to do is share my Boston Marathon experience. BUT everytime I try the words just don't come out right. I felt the weekend with every emotion and loved every single second but my words are not coming out on the page in the way I would like. It is irritating and frustrating. But only time will allow. Therefore I step away and...wait. knowing with every ounce that they will come, in time.