In less then 12 hours I will be embarking on an adventure of fun and laughter. I am heading to Paris, France with two old friends. We arrive first thing tmo morning and I cannot wait. I have never been to Europe and with some unplanned time off work and my 30th Birthday around the corner-I am so saying Hell Why Not! May this adventure heal my heart and reveal what needs to be revealed to me. May every moment be truthful and unfold each relevant emotion as it should. VIVE LA FRANCE!!
Yesterday at 3pm sharp, myself and some other society members headed over to the Royal Canadian Yacht Club for a day of sailing lessons, a sailing race, a lovely Barbeque on the RCYC lawn and a ton of fun and laughter! It was incredible! I have not had that much fun in a very very long time. New must do: GET MY HANDS ON AN RCYC MEMBERSHIP... Aaaaamazing! ;)
It is only when you are confronted by a big challenge that you learn what you are capable of. You also, admittedly, get to make a very clear discovery about what you are intimidated by. You've learned much. Success awaits you.
Ok...so as mentioned earlier this week I have had a rough week. My heart has been crushed and my life turned upside down. I am ready to share with you what has been going on and what has happened. Sam and I have been interrupted. We as a team are disrupted. We are no longer one. Sam and I are separated. We are not together. Sam and I are no longer we. But now I am just me. Sam needs some time to figure things out. Sam and I are on a break. I am not going to sugar coat it-it hurts and I am hurting BUT I am strong. I am fierce and I will pull it together-just give me a little more time. I will come around. I know I will continue to hurt pretty bad but I know, or at least I am hoping, there is a light at the end of the tunnel. I will get through this. I will prevail because that is what I do. That is what I have always done. I know I need to hurt REAL bad before I can start to be ok- so I say bring it. Bring it ON! I am ready to start feeling better. I am ready to stop crying and get on with it. I love Sam and I always will, but he has made a choice that will effect and change me forever. Life is about ups and downs. It is about lessons and geez have I learned a few the last 3 months! But everything happens for a reason and such lessons will only strengthen my heart and my soul. I can only become a better and stronger person because of this. So I say, I am Ready...Not really sure for what...But I am ready for the tears to be gone, the pain to dissipate and to move forward with strength and grace, like I know I can.
So it has been a rough week. I am not ready to share the ins and outs but I do know I need things that make me happy. My horoscope does just that: Leo (July 23 — Aug. 22)
Mercury's return to forward motion in the next few days will make good things more possible. It will pave the way for something positive to happen. Doors will open and options will begin to appear. Things will be more likely to go well.
I am me and that is all I can be. True to me. Real to me. Strong for me. I must plant my very own garden and decorate my own soul. To love you, I must love me. To be there for you, I must be there for me. To live for you, I must live for me. For you, I must be ME.
While running in the marathon, there were a few songs that kept me fierce. One in particular gives me the shivers, even now, when I hear it. The lyrics are incredible. Definitely worth sharing:
It's, not, how you start, it's how you finish, And it's, not, where you're from, it's where you're at,
Everybody gets knocked down, Everybody gets knocked down, How quick are you gonna' get up? How quick are you gonna' get up? Everybody gets knocked down, Everybody gets knocked down, How quick are you gonna' get up? Just how are you gonna' get up?
Like Ali in the jungle, Like Nelson in jail, Like Simpson on the mountain, With odds like that, they were bound to fail Like Keller in the darkness, Like Adam's in the dark, Like Ludwig Van, how I loved that man, well the guy went deaf and didn't give a fuck, no...
No, no, no
It's, not, where you are, It's where you're going, Where are you going? And it's, not, about the things you've done, it's what you're doing, now, What are you doing, now?
Everybody gets knocked down, Everybody gets knocked down, How quick are you gonna' get up? How quick are you gonna' get up, now? Everybody gets knocked down, Everybody gets knocked down, How quick are you gonna' get up? Just how are you gonna' get up?
Like Ali in the jungle, Like Nelson in jail, Like Simpson on the mountain, Well with odds like that, they were bound to fail Like Keller in the darkness, Like Adam's in the dark, Like Ludwig Van, how I loved that man, well the guy went deaf and didn't give a fuck, no...
Oooh, ooh, ooh No, no, no Oooh, ooh, ooh No, no, no Oooh, ooh, ooh
It's the greatest comeback since Lazarus, The greatest comeback since Lazarus, It's the greatest comeback since Lazarus, The greatest comeback since Lazarus, It's the greatest comeback since Lazarus, The greatest comeback since Lazarus, The greatest comeback since Lazarus, The greatest comeback... It's the greatest comeback...
(Radio Commentator) This, is the most joyous scene, ever seen in the history of boxing, this is an incredible scene, the place is going wild, Muhammed Ali has won, Muhammed Ali has won, by a knockdown! By a knockdown! The thing they said was impossible, he's done!
Download ALI IN THE JUNGLE By The Hours. You won't regret it!
My friends, summer is finally here! Yippee! YAY! It is hot-like FLA in the summer Hot! Like 43 degrees Celcius with the humidity hot. Yessss, my favorite kind! In typical Canadian fashion complaining is on its high. Everyone with the grunts and groans of Omy too hot or too sticky. I my friends am content. I love the way your skin feels-it is moist and supple. I love the relaxed feeling I feel as soon as stepping outdoors-all I need is a pina coloda, my bikini, a pool, the sun and I would be set for life. :) Unfortunately I do work for a living and at the office I am stuck in a cold aired office with no direct view of outdoors SO I have started living for the weekends and the evenings. I think most of us live for the weekends most of the time unknowingly or subconsciously, I now consciously am counting down the days until Friday. That is okay, non? I'd say so...Because our illustrious summers in Canada are so short but so damn sweet. In my eyes, it is allowed. Completely and totally. We kicked off this summer heat this past weekend with a lot of fun in the sun. Friday evening we joined Lexer and Case on the Danforth for some cocktails and eats. It was a perfect start to the weekend. On Saturday I woke early, headed for a hair cut-actually more of a trim- then for some laps in the pool. This was followed up with a mini shopping spree on bloor-pourquoi pas?, then it was off to Hemingway's patio for a yummy lunch with Lexer and some beers with SamB. We finished the afternoon off with some cocktails on our roof top. That evening Sam and I dined with Lexi and Mark at Spice Route-DELISH! Though the service was not amazing-the ambiance was QUITE interesting-to say the least. Give it a go-you will know what I mean. Afterwards we headed to Amuse Bouche for a big ole 30th Birthday Party for Can, Roz and Steve. Tons of fun, laughter and too many drinkies. Sunday we slept in a little then gots in the car and were Lake Buckley bound! (aka as the paradise in the Buckley's backyard known as the pool and gazebo!!) We lounged and swam. It was amazing. All in all a killer weekend of fun times and hot days. PERFECTION in my minds eye...Cannot wait for the coming weekends-believe you me the count down(s) are on!
Ok I have sucked lately. Like really really sucked. I have not posted in almost 2 weeks. A lot has been going on- though I am quite aware that that is not a viable excuse for not posting. So my apologies!
Well May is behind us. May was quite the month for me. I ran an effing MARATHON-injury and all! Enough said! Just Kidding. May was truly a month of soul searching and learning. I met new friends, learned how strong I truly am, how positivity can change EVERYTHING and that life is not always on your side but you make the best of EVERY situation thrown your way. I learned that love can endure and that your friends are truly your extended family. I realized that I love swimming,I love coronas, that sweating the small stuff only makes the big stuff seem bigger and you must always look out for number one! I have learned that I am fierce and that by not taking everything to heart, the heart is not so heavy. I saw the SEX AND THE CITY MOVIE with Chris and some wonderful friends of hers. I laughed a lot and cried a little-mostly happy tears! I endured and I withstood great pain. I spent a wonderful weekend up north with the Currer's, I did restorative yoga with great friends and reminisced a lot about good times. May, I lived and I learned! Now for June... Which to me, has always meant the beginning of summer. The days are long, hot and most importantly fun! Weekends are spent with corona's in hand, up north on the dock, poolside or roof top. The sun kisses our bodies and leaves us all looking healthy and feeling refreshed. Everyone is happier then usual and more relaxed then any other time in the year. If you cannot tell, Summer is my fave season. I love the clothing choices, being outside and the happiness in the air! I love summer. Though the first week of June has been a bit of a whirlwind, I am not allowing it to dampen my spirits. On June 4th I was told that I have a fractured pelvic ring in two places. Can you believe it? I could not. My therapist was even a bit shocked. I am crutch free, swimming every other day and staying as positive as I possibly can. It looks like running is out for sometime but it will only make my my next run that much sweeter...I can already see myself out there with tears of joy streaming down my face. lol... My main focus right now is staying fit and in shape. So far so good. June will be a great month. More sunshiney days and moments. More time with SamB. More time with friends and most importantly more laughter and good times. I can hardly wait...
Today is my little bro's BIRTHDAY! And actually he is hardly little! he is just under two years younger then I but is a hell of a lot bigger then I! Today he turned 28! The last month he has accomplished a hell of a lot. He has quit smoking-cold turkey. Decided to become more active-cycling is his acitivity of choise. His GF and him have decided to move into the big smoke by the fall. I have a feeling his 28th year will be his best yet. With all he has accomplished in the month leading up to it, it just has to be a sign! LOVE YOU NOJ! I am so damn proud of you and am so lucky to have you as my bro. HAPPY EFFING BIRTHDAY!!!!!