Friday, December 24, 2010

Twas christmas eve...already?

Well well well here we are again at the holly season.  It is Christmas eve and I am at the rents already starting to relax away from the city's hustle and bustle.  my pressies are wrapped, tied and bowed--although they look as though they were wrapped by a 5 year old...they ARE wrapped.  Tacky not lovely was the vings theme of the day.  I whistled and dance partied while I worked and somewhere at some moment I got excited about this here season.  It has been awhile since I was genuinely excited for Christmas.  Somewhere along the years it lost its spark for me.  I always try and pin point the exact reason but there is unfortunately a handful but this year they are not getting me down.  They range from Santa to loss to earth shattering pain.  Somehow this year I have bottled them up in a mason jar and put them to the side.  They are there, I can feel them, but the joy and love in my heart are winning.  Perhaps this year is one in a million or perhaps this season will be one I embrace forevermore, either way I am going to embrace and go with it and enjoy every itty bitty second.
Merry Christmas, My friends!  Go!  Now!  Eat, drink, Be merry and Be thankful.
V. xo

Thursday, December 9, 2010

My heart is heavy.

Today is just another day for you but not for me.  It is a day, years ago I lost someone I loved and still do love very much.  I miss him and think of him often.  Would I change one moment we shared back then?  Never.  We loved, we laughed, we cried, we shared.  He shall live on deep within the bowels of my heart and remain one breath away until that day we meet again.  As he sits up there looking down upon me with that mischievous smile of his, I look right back and give him a wink and thank my lucky stars for the time we had and the moments we shared.  
Friends, we cannot rewrite the past and only have the future but I will always and forever remember him and the impact he had on my life. Take a moment today and be thankful for everyone in your life.  Tell these peeps how you feel and what they mean to just never know.  Life is just so damn precious and too damn short.  My heart is heavy but for the best possible reason, to love someone so much, is so damn incredible. He is always with me. Forevermore.
V. xo