Every year for the last 2 years I have written out a long list of resolutions for the new year. This year I refuse to put that pressure on myself. Instead I am going to write out my wishes for myself and hope that with incredible drive of spirit I will accomplish these tasks. What I want for myself is to keep true to myself and all of those wonderous individuals in my life. What I hope to become true with much training and hard work is to run Mississauga Marathon injury free and qualify for the Boston Marathon in 2010. I hope to be continously challenged in my daily life and surrounded by amazing individuals. I hope to never lose my enthusiasm for the small but exciting things. I hope to never lose my passion and emotion. Though privately I will make a list of the things I need to take control and care of but what is important is I am going to make 09 all mine! I am going to embrace it just like I embraced everything that came with the summer of 08--summer of sarah! 09 is all mine! You'll see... V.
Well my friends here we are in the middle of December. Can you believe it--in just over 2 weeks this year will be finito. What a year 08 has been? There have been so many ups and downs; twists and turns--but ya know at the end of the day I would not trade these for anything. If you had asked me a year ago today where my life would be--I would have thought very very very different then what my reality actually is today. Life is a strange thing and as a new wonderous friend said to me today: "Enjoy the Rollercoaster. It means you are ALIVE!" This quote could not be more true. If I had not had to endure the emotional and physical pain I would not be even half the person I am today or have half of the amazing people I am lucky to have in my life. My friends have really come through--new and old. They have brought new meaning to the words loyalty, love, truth and in all actuality, friendship. Though the past year has been tough-- and that is putting it lightly--I have had numerous heartbreaks and heartaches. I have been beaten and bruised emotionally and physically. People have let me down and tried to break my spirit. Instead I embraced those things because of the support I was offered, I am: 30 and actually happy about it. I am single. I am so far from content—I am excited! I am finally recovered from a fractured pelvis and running better and stronger then ever. I am confident and stronger then I ever even imagined I could be. I have made myself vulnerable and allowed people in. I have let the most amazing people in. I have made mistakes—stupid and silly ones. I have learned so much not only about myself but those around me. I have learned that life is too short to live in the past or to worry crazily about the future. I have found the most amazing friends. If my life did not go the way it did, I would not have so much happiness and love in my life.
All that has gone down in 08 I shall embrace. I shall move forward with my head up high, a smile on my lips and so much love in my heart because 2009 is going to be my year--I can feel it!! The past few weeks have been filled with so much decking the halls and tis the seasoning I do not even know what to do with myself! There have been parties, christmas dinners, cocktails and wine, pot lucks, full on raging, too many laughs and way toooo much fun! With a week to go and not more then one present purchased I better on it and get into it! Yay December and yay to a new year just around the corner!
I was sent this in a forward sometime ago--These are words worth reading and always remembering...
Someone will always be prettier. Someone will always be smarter. Someone's house will be bigger. They will drive a better car. Their children will do better in school. Their husband will fix more things around the house. So? LET IT GO!!!!!! Love you and your circumstances. Think about it. The prettiest woman in the world can have turmoil in her heart. The most highly favored woman on your job may be unable to have children. The richest woman you know may have the car, the house, the clothes... but she might be lonely. Love you. Love who you are. Look in the mirror in the morning and smile and say: 'I am too blessed to be stressed and too anointed to be disappointed!' 'Winners make things happen. Losers let things happen.' 'To the world you might be one person, but to one person you just might be the world'.
It has been 11 years since we lost him. 11 years since he was taken away. The pain will always be real and sharp. It has become something you can just swallow and live with. He had so much to offer and so much love to give. We never got to say goodbye. I know he is up there somewhere watching over me, protecting me. He will remain in my heart always and merely a single breath away. He is in my thoughts today and always. With Love, V xo.
Sunday I awoke at an godly hour for a Sunday...I had to get to Mississauga to run the 10K Chilly Willy. I was not only running the race but was the coach! So I gots in the car and we made our way to Port Credit. It was a brisk morn but at least there was some sunshine. The race started at 9:30am sharp--off we went! It was chilly but I felt gooood and took advantage of this! Off I went! Anyway low and behold I was the second female across the line and ran a Personal Best of 46:40! I was pumped and thought of it still gets me pretty excited! I am baaaack--better and stronger!!
Costa Rica could not have come at a more appropriate time! I needed clarity but gained perspective. I needed to be reminded of who I actually was and luckily it came flying back. Costa Rica was an exceptionally beautious place. The people kind hearted and generous. The landscape gorge--luscious and serene. Costa Rica made my heart smile the entire time I was there. The monkeys would swing by and the iguanas crawl millimeters from my toes. It was unbelievably amazing. The best part of CR was being there for Liv and Che's wedding! Livvy had an amazing crew of friends and family come down to share in her special day. I left with a handful of new friends. Truly amazing. Liv was stunning and Che was handsome. There were kind words and much love shared. Costa Rica will always have a special spot in my heart. If I am lucky I will hopefully get to go back and be surrounded by the amazingness that is there.
CONGRATS LIV & CHE! I feel so honored and lucky that I was able to be there. V. xo