I am Ready...

"the best way out is ALWAYS through".

Ok...so as mentioned earlier this week I have had a rough week. My heart has been crushed and my life turned upside down. I am ready to share with you what has been going on and what has happened.
Sam and I have been interrupted. We as a team are disrupted. We are no longer one. Sam and I are separated. We are not together. Sam and I are no longer we. But now I am just me. Sam needs some time to figure things out. Sam and I are on a break. I am not going to sugar coat it-it hurts and I am hurting BUT I am strong. I am fierce and I will pull it together-just give me a little more time. I will come around. I know I will continue to hurt pretty bad but I know, or at least I am hoping, there is a light at the end of the tunnel. I will get through this. I will prevail because that is what I do. That is what I have always done. I know I need to hurt REAL bad before I can start to be ok- so I say bring it. Bring it ON! I am ready to start feeling better. I am ready to stop crying and get on with it. I love Sam and I always will, but he has made a choice that will effect and change me forever.
Life is about ups and downs. It is about lessons and geez have I learned a few the last 3 months! But everything happens for a reason and such lessons will only strengthen my heart and my soul. I can only become a better and stronger person because of this.
So I say, I am Ready...Not really sure for what...But I am ready for the tears to be gone, the pain to dissipate and to move forward with strength and grace, like I know I can.

V.