Promises

Today is my birthday. My favorite day of the year. I know how that sounds but it really is for many reasons. One of thems being that you get a fresh start, a new beginning. It also gives you a chance to sit back and reflect on the year that passed and all that you learned through the experiences you have had.
This past year I did and experienced a lot. So many awesome highs but of course a couple of lows too. For without the lows there would be no highs. The last few years I have learned a lot about myself, about love and about friendship. I learned that bumps in the road are challenging but they make us stronger, and better. They allow us growth. I have made mistakes and I have been so hard on myself for such errors. Too hard at times. I have learned this year who in fact my friends are and what makes a good friend a good friend. I have learned to trust myself and to love myself. By all my learnings I have also decided to make some promises to myself for this coming year.
I promise to give myself more credit and to not be so hard on myself when I in fact do something I am not exceptionally proud of. I promise to love myself when the going gets tough and the tough gets going.
I promise to honor my friends and be there for them no matter what, just as they are for me. To protect and love each one of them for who they are.
I promise to rid the social drama from my life and to keep out of others.
I promise to keep my thoughts to myself unless asked.
I promise to continue to give second chances but to an extent.
I promise to follow my heart and but listen to my head.
I promise to take care of my mind, my body and my soul.
I promise to enter everything with a wide open heart.
I promise to laugh loud and hard but to cry if need be too.
I promise to be true and honest to me.
I promise that inconsiderate people do not deserve any piece of me or my heart.
I promise to always cherish my family and make them a priority.
I promise to not sweat the little things.
I promise to stop saying yes all the time and say no because when I try and do everything I always end up letting not only someone else down but I let myself down.
I promise to continue to celebrate the little things and be thankful and gracious.
I promise to keep having fun and remembering that age is a matter of the mind.
I promise to be me. Real and always with an open heart!
I have a funny feeling about the year to come. And by funny, I mean AWESOME. I can hardly wait.
With that, Happy Birthday to moi!
V. xo

Today is THE day.

V. xo

Single fo life yo?

Well, y'all know I am an optimist. A real positive gal with positivity almost pouring out of every pour but sometimes my mama's realism pushes through. My mom is an awesome woman whom sees things for what they are. I appreciate her insight more then you might think. She is my mom after all so sometimes this realist attitude can take shape within me. I don't always love it but it happens. As of late I have come to terms with being alone...in the best possible way. I heart being independent, making choices pour moi. I don't mind time to myself and I love flying by the seat of my pants. It has been a long road to here. I have made mistakes, done things I am not especially proud of but learned a hell of a lot along the way. There has also been much funs and laughs. I wouldn't change my journey to here for anything. But as of late I am starting to wonder if there is anyone out there for me. I am trying not to lose hope but I mean am I to be single for life yos? I know what your sayin', giver time vings, it will happen when you least expect it. But will it? I mean I have met some great dudes. Dudes I would date and would love to get to know better but then it comes slowly but surely, the blow off. You know it, you have felt it, unfortunately we have all done it. I am just not sure how much more I can take. How much more I can endure. It deflates, defaults and hurts. Not only does it hurt the ego a tad, it hurts my heart. It hurts like a stubbed toe. A quick burst of pain shivers through one edge to the other. I do what we all do when we experience this type of pain, curse loudly, take a deep breath and carry on. But before the carry on bit I can get a little loopy. I don't deal well with grey. I need black and I need white. Grey is confusing. I am working on embracing it better but there is still a lot of work to be done. It is all frustrating and deflating.
I watch shows like the Bachelorette and the Bachelor Pad and wonder why the heck people set themselves up for rejection purposely on national TV. I mean there is a 1 in what 50 chance you won't get rejected? but still those odds are not so good. Well not good enough for me, anyway. I cannot stand anything about rejection. The word itself even gets me rattled.
I know I am ranting a tad and I apologize for that.
So where does this leave me? Exactly where I started at the top of this post. Perhaps you see this as me giving up--which is out of character for the vings--as much as I would love to say, I just don't give a damn, I won't and in all honesty I can't. As the optimist in me would say with each stubbed heart I become stronger and I learn...something, I am just not sure of what yet. And it gets me closer to my prince charming...I guess. Single fo life? Nahhhh Single fo now.
Thanks for listening ;)

V. xo

truth.

V. xo

You and Me=My K-star and Noj.

Well in less then 2 weeks I will finally get that sister I have always wanted and more! I can hardly wait! The below song is theirs and gives me chills with every listen...Yet more lyrics that speak directly to my little heart....Take a read/listen and you'll see what I mean! V. xo


Dave Matthews-You and Me. (click for a listen!)
Wanna pack your bags, Something small
Take what you need and we disappear
Without a trace we'll be gone, gone
The moon and the stars can follow the car
and then when we get to the ocean
We gonna take a boat to the end of the world
All the way to the end of the world

Oh, and when the kids are old enough
We're gonna teach them to fly

You and me together, we could do anything, Baby
You and me together yes, yes (x2)

You and I, we're not tied to the ground
Not falling but rising like rolling around
Eyes closed above the rooftops
Eyes closed, we're gonna spin through the stars
Our arms wide as the sky
We gonna ride the blue all the way to the end of the world
To the end of the world

Oh, and when the kids are old enough
We're gonna teach them to fly

You and me together, we could do anything, Baby
You and me together yes, yes

We can always look back at what we did
All these memories of you and me baby
But right now it's you and me forever girl
And you know we could do better than anything that we did
You know that you and me, we could do anything

You and me together, we could do anything, Baby
You and me together yeah, yeah
Two of us together, we could do anything, baby
You and me together yeah, yeah
Two of us together yeah, yeah
Two of us together, we could do anything, baby

truth.

V. xo

My Happy Place of 2010.

Sigh. BWA I love thee.

V. xo

Did ya miss moi?

Ok...so it has been awhile..like a looong while. My sincerest apologies, friends. I have been locked out. I know, tots sounds like just another excuse but I pinky its truth. Gmail locked me out which locked me out of everything I have access google styles. It was truly obnoxious. But let's not dwell on that...I am back! weeee!

Time is flying by...been laughing and loving this summer away! Meeting new friends, enjoying life to the fullest, running up a storm, feeling stronger, feeling better and feeling more real then ever before. It is magically awesome. I always thrive in the summer but this summer has proved better then ever. It is a whole whack of variables working together creating pure awesomeness. I am taking every inch of it in and embracing it with every ounce of me. For when the wind of Fall blows I can recall, recount and be back in the moments that are today.

Anyway, I have missed you yos! I can assure I will be posting more regs...I have missed sharing my life with y'all.

I can also assure you my boston experience will be up soon...promise.

sooo wonderous to be back. Happy sigh from my Vingnation...
V. xo